Tuesday, 7 June 2005

I don't like girls. They are gossipy, self-centered, and much too dramatic. And I'm one of them.

I don't like teenagers. They are selfish, hypocritical, wanna save the world but too lazy and too much fluff to do anything about it. Teenagers in general are obsessed with the opposite sex and can think of nothing else and are too present-minded to care. They point fingers at those horrid adults because adults never do what they say they should do and expect us to do --and then a teenager turns around and does it. They want to stand out as something different, unique, and distinct yet they also want to blend in and be a part of a bigger picture but they just can't figure out how. And I'm one of them.

I don't like Christians. They think that because they have the answer it makes their life all better, so there should be no more problems, and if anyone dare admit that they have a problem, heresy. Yet the Christians are just as bad in the areas of porn, divorce, molestation, and abuse as the poor heathen. Christians want to solve the world's problems but can't pull the logs out of their own eye, and must go digging in their poor neighbor's eyes for specks. They use the stupidest cliches and think they're spiritual because it's scriptural. And I'm one of them.

I don't like people. People are immature, selfish, and really don't have a clue what is going on. They love to play games about improving themselves and put on masks and build walls and stay as shallow as humanly possible. They construct fences to keep everyone at a safe distance so no one will see that they're really full of holes and can't hold water. They hold in emotions until they're a basket case or they convince everyone else that they are a basket case because they can't control their emotions at all. And I'm one of them.

I'm angry with myself. I am disappointed in the world at large. I haven't read my Bible by myself just me and God in a long time. Yet I still think I am just fine, no problems, until I do something wrong and dang it there I am hurting people I love best. God, you better know what's going on. Because I don't.